I'm the only person who can judge myself and I live for myself.
I go by reasoning but I hate to explain. Cause I believe the one whom you bother to explain to them doesn't need the explaination. So you see, I have a weird thinking thus you won't know what I am thinking most of the time.
If you never tried, you never know. You've to face the consquences though.
Dreams are hard to follow but don't let anyone tear them away. Hold on, there will be tomorrow. In time you'll find the way.




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But I remember those simple things, I remember 'til I cry. But the one thing I wish I'd forget, the memory I wanna forget. Is goodbye.

December 2009


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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

''It's a long road.
When you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love,
If you search within yourself.
And the emptiness you felt will disappear.''



''With the strength to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive.
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong.
And you'll finally see the truth.''



''I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.
I could stay lost in this moment forever.
Well, every moment spent with you, Is a moment I treasure.
'Cause even when I dream of you , the sweetest dream will never do.
I'd still miss you, babe.''


Tuesday, December 29, 2009

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A day before chirstmas eve.

Well, a late post once again. I am gonna post everything up before 2010 steps in!! :x
So apparently, two days before the christmas eve (22nd of dec) ...
I still remember clearly that my beloved bff bomb me. It was really damn miserable cause I already changed and at the busstop waiting for bus towards town to meet her and her family. End up... She is going off from town alr. -_-
And all I could do is U-turn home.

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Kk, so back to a day before chirstmas eve post (23rd of dec).
Had work in the morning-afternoon.
Met bro @ Clementi mrt after work, waited for him to arrive. Sibei slowzxzxzzxzx.
But I had to bear with it cause that time he waited me for hours... Opps. :x
Kk, brother!!!

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Down to jp, jolene came over.
Went to arcade, got my melody for bff's chirstmas present. ( finally I can post this out, cause I finally gave it too her alr!!! )

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Off to safra, wanted to play l4d2 but once again, full..
Slack around outside, playing with water. :p Still kids ah.
Walked around bangala park and so..

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Finally decided to go back jp, and they called telling us there is places alr. -.- Didn't feel like playing anymore so didn't went back.
Slack around and so then homed.

Anyway, I was damn sad!! Cause I lost my ring I bought on the day itself!!
Ciao my long miss lost ring...

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Cause it was too big and my $$$ just flew away like that, again.
It drop without me knowing.



''I'm tired of love, feeling so misplaced. Time for you to go.
Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh.
Don't call me on the phone because I'm all out of words.
I'll face the unknown, thinking about all the ways that I've grown.
Don't turn around and don't look back, I see right through all your selfless acts.
If you win your love, I'll feel better on my own. Leave me alone.''



''What hurts the most, is being so close. And having so much to say, and watching you walk away.
Never knowing, what could have been.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go, but i'm doing it.
It's hard to force that smile. I'm not afraid to cry.
Every once in a while even though going on, with you gone still upsets me.
There are days, every now and again I pretend i'm okay, but that's not what gets me.''



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Shopping trip @ town with bff.

This was days ago, but lazy me was lazy to post once again.
A week ago again. Lol! Pardon meeeeeeeee once again.

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Meeted bff, I was late. -_- I was uncontactable since my phone went on a ''i-am-dying'' state. But I apparently waited for her at clementi leh! I thought she haven't leave house yet she leave alr. -.-
I went to her house, and found out she alr gone jp. -.-
Met her at jp instead.
Didn't stay long before we lefted for town.

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I feel damn awkward compare to what she wore. Omg, I think I can bang the wall sua.
She wore a dress, not the one in the photo. She changed out of it, for I dont know what reason. Lol! I changed to a skirt only later too.

I know I look horrible in all the picture. Just get out of here if you don't want see. -.-

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Lol! Met her buyer at orchard and we headed off to forever 21, cotton on and so..
We spent hours there yet we didn't know. LOL

I like this damn lots, but I didn't get it! Should I???

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Booooooooooo. I know I am fat.
Just keep the comments to yourself.

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Went taka, ate ajisen ramen.
Leg painnnnnnnnnnnnnn leh. Lol. I mean tiredddddd.

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Walked ard taka, saw this pencilcase that I wanted to bought but didn't.
I regretted not buying it now. ))): Anyone want to accompany me go there buy? Lol, sibei far.

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Back to clementi.
Wanted to sing kbox but too ex, thus didn't cause we shopped till like... -_- And we made darence and jingsong came over for nothing with their so called bike. Cause everyone was like in the sing k mood/feel.

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Voiddeck to slack. Yarlee lefted soon. And the 3 of us slack.
Sing K @ voiddeck, stupid like hell but okay! haha.

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Last minute decision to go down to westcoast.
Went mac, ate there.
Lefted, rained. Had to wait for the rain to stop, shelter at busstop.

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Pangseh them and cab home. I feel damn bad, sorry really! I have difficulties + reasons !!! ))): It's getting laterrrrrrr and laterrrrrrrrrr. My parents is getting worry and naggy.
They waited for the rain to stop before riding back to boonlay. Far, i know.
Sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Homed then.

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Monday, December 28, 2009

''But I remember those simple things.
I remember 'til I cry.
But the one thing I wish I'd forget.
The memory I wanna forget.
Is goodbye.''



''当她横刀夺爱的时候, 你忘了所有的誓言.
她扬起爱情胜利的旗帜, 你要我选择继续爱你的方式.
你曾经说要保护我, 只给我温柔没挫折.
可是现在你总是对我回避, 不再为我有心事而着急.''



''人说恋爱就像放风筝,
如果太计较就有悔恨.
只是你们都忘了告诉我,
放纵的爱也会让天空划满伤痕.''


Sunday, December 27, 2009

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My Lonely 15th Birthday.


I am 7 days late! But it's okay!
I took a million zillion photos but I ended up with a few only ah, I don't know why ah! Girls all like that? Or only me? LOLLOL.
And I spent days sorting the photos out and came to found out I look damn cui in every picture. The one I post is those ''cui but please bear with it'' photos. LOL

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I got woke up EARLY THE MORNING just to go over to my cousin's house when I only slept for 3-4 hours? And my cousin house was at sengkang.
Fyi, I am staying at clementi. See the distance pleaseeeeeeeeee. T.T

Yeahhhhhh, I went wavehouse the previous night. No, I didn't countdown my birthday there. Time just past like that, something miserable happen. But it's over.
Slack my day off using facebook! Hahahha, pathetic.
Played taidi and 21dot with my cousin. They play until veryvery funny. Cannot imagine. -.-

They got me cookie and cream icecream cake from swensen. Well, I'm not really a fan of cookie and cream. It taste creamy though! Haha.

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Make a wish!
*Mumble to myself. I shall not tell you my wish !!!*
Old belief: If you say out your wish, your wish won't come true!! Hehe.

Okay, now you may blow and cut your cake.

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( with grandfather and grandmother. )

Went off around late evening and went shopping!!!
I was super happy, bought so many stuff for myself. :DDD *Winkwink.
Thanks mummy! My fav buy was the bag from Charles and keith. But I pay myself for that particular item. T.T It's pretty, well.. At least to me it is !!! :p So it's okay!!!
Oh ya oh ya, I got myself a pretty pink chio wallet too and it's CHEAP too! Omg, a super budget worth buy! I post the picture of it someday k!
Actually I got alot of cheap lobang also and I am happy with all my loots. :)

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Another happy thing was that I saw huayching and joanna!!! I was shock to see them.
Pretty amazing and lucky, cause it was huayching last day work at there. And Joanna was waiting for her to end work. Yay!!! Our plans ah joanna!
Daddy came to fetch me after that, went home to dump everything onto my bed and rush out to meet bff. Okayyyyyy. I am a messy girl.

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She gave me a surprise handmade birthday cake and a pressie. <: I was elated when I received it. Oh yes, bestfriend and darence was there too! But.. Mm, her handmade birthday cake was rather looking very unappealing to eat. For the reason that it looks like

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Sorrysorry! But it doesn't taste that bad. I had to use her picture that she took cause it was looking less of a shit compare to those I took. All the photos I took of the cake was like... shit.
Hey! But it doesn't taste awful k ! It's nutty with chocolate sauce coated on it!
I swear I did try before saying this!! My evidence.

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Everyone was tasting the cake out too, hehe. And it's not negative. It's pretty awesome.
:DDD Thanks bff, I love it. It's the heart that counts okay!
But I know I laugh really hard like the others did... :x Opps.

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My pressie.


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I had difficulty getting my present out of it cause...


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Wait till you see it clearer.
Tada, my pressie.

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Yeah, look at the number of paper is available on the background. That was the number of time I have to peel to get my pressie out of it. LOL.
It comes with a pretty card too. :p

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Yarlee comfirm say: Wa, you continue show everyone what I write for you lo.
Opps. LOLLOL.

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Really thanks k ! :D
I love you many too!
Sorry didn't got the chance to give you your christmas present... ): Soon I promise!
I have reason!! I was down with fever + cough + flu + sorethroat on xmas. What a joke played on me. Mm...

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Slack around and so...
Darence was bullying the birthday by taking my camera and running away. T.T
I had to chase after him to get back my camera and he apparently snapped a million zillion photos during that short duration of time.
What a bff's boyf. -_- LOL

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Yarlee's mum saw us soon thus she had to go home, continue to slack.
Accompany them to mac since they were hungry. I have the privilege to sit the bike since I was the birthday girl. ^^

And I apparently ended my day like that. :D Laughs*

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'' Though i know that you're not coming back to me.
You know i'll do anything to make you stay.
If the feeling is gone, please don't
pretend that you still love me.
I can see it in your eyes, and it hurts to admit it.
There's a sadness in your smile, though I try to conceal it. ''


Friday, December 25, 2009

'' Time can never mend, to the heart and mind.
Ignorance is kind, And there's no comfort in the truth.
Pain is all you'll find. ''



'' Just when I thought I was over you, And just when I thought
I could stand on my own. Oh baby those memories come crashing through, And I
just can't go on without. It's just no good without you. Here I am playing with
those memories again, And just when I thought time had set me free. Those
thoughts of you keep taunting me. ''